welcome to nobody is reading this
story time!
when i was little, i used to visit my great-grandfather in a small village just 30 minutes away from my hometown in the north of portugal. he had a humble house with animals and a garden, but the thing i loved the most was his “nhec-nhec”. to this day, my family still laughs at my code name for “pen”, mimicking the sound it made. every time we visited him, i would follow him around asking if i could have the “nhec-nhec”.
for me, words are a love language. i’ve always been fascinated by them, obsessing over my grandfathers old typewriter and the loose letters around his study. when i was old enough to write, i poured my fascination with words into poems, short stories and the movie script i gifted my best-friend that one time long ago. i went to school to be a journalist, worked for a magazine, and still dream of writing a book someday.
that book, i decided long ago, would be called “nobody is reading this”. it’s a nod to my imposter syndrome, the not so bright side of my writing that never feels good enough to share with anyone. words, i’ve come to realize, are a very particular, personal thing. it’s scary to share them with the world and risk having someone say “this sucks”.
i’ve been paralyzed by this fear (and still am, sometimes). but i’ve also come to realize that nothing brings me more joy than writing. lots of therapy + my loving friends + my dear partner made me see that i was missing out on my own happiness. and that is what nobody is reading this is—my happiness.
this newsletter is a collection of personal experiences, pop culture essays, and all the things i’m consuming and loving. above all, it’s my way of not being so afraid. my way of being happy.
more about me
i’ve always struggled with “about me” sections. every time i read one from an online publication, a magazine, or a book, i can’t help but feel that i’ll never have anything interesting to add to my own. i cringe at the idea of having to write one of these. i’ve never lived abroad. i don’t speak ten languages and I don’t have a niche hobby. my writing hasn’t been featured in x, y, or z.
to be honest, i’m just a girl. and maybe that’s enough, right?
i am borderline basic but a little too complex for my own good. i overthink everything and have an existential crisis every other day. i love treating myself to cake and coffee, sometimes matcha if i’m feeling really fancy. i’m the friend who knows every useless bit of pop culture information and sends daily memes via every form of social media. i’m also known to be funny and emotional, to love a good dancing sesh on a saturday night and a pilates class on a sunday morning, and to quote every trending word or phrase. slay.
this is everything you’ll be getting if you subscribe to nobody is reading this. if you do, thank you, i see you, and i appreciate you! 💌
